Monday, June 15, 2015

Our fear

Fear cripples us
and devours our 
Potential
it stops us
from becoming
the jewel that
God made us
to be
It is a ball
and chain
and a cage
that imprisons
us, 
it has
a big
mouth
and tries to
punk us
out
like a
big prison
bully
that obstructs
us from
from
our
joy
and
keeps
us closed
to the idea
of change
and a 
better
way of
life
and stunts
our mind
from
growing,
and because
of it 
our spirit
lays on
the road
of despair
like
dead
meat
for the
Vulture
of
dejectedness




Sunday, June 14, 2015

The goodness of misery

Misery is the mother
of wisdom,telling
us the lessons of
our folly and
every misfortune
making muscle men
of our minds,
it is the
creator
of the blues
and our best
teacher
that we
ever had,
the spurs
that kick
the horse
of 
change
and the eyes
to help us
see a
blessing
and if it were
not for misery
we'd always stay
the same,
I once was
so miserable
that for 
months
I forgot
the sun 
and that
 the sky
was blue
and it reminded
me that every
day
is 
a blessing




The new voice

My past was a ghost
that hovered over me
that would whisper 
in my ears
for years
and told 
me lies
and cheered
all my 
failures
it's invisible
finger pointing
at me
and this 
made me
afraid to
try
paralyzed 
by
every
accusing
word
and every
bad thing
happened
that it
prophesied 
and then 
one day
I'd had
It up to
my ears
and
I told
that 
voice
it had 
no
power
and I 
began to
believe
all of 
my minds
encouraging 
words
and to
dream
and
dared to
try
and now
I am
victorious,
a new
creature
with lots
of zeal 
and a
hearty love
for
life











A word of hope

Yesterday is dead
today is a gift
so close that
door
to the day
before
and chase
your dreams,
your story
has a brand
new page
not one
single day
is the same
if you dare
to look hard 
enough,
your destiny
is not 
cast
in
stone,
each day is
a blessing
and a mystery
and every
tomorrow 
is a
cheerleader
for hope,
you do not
know what it
has in it's 
suitcase
to give 
you
take a
moment
to smile
because you
are strong,
strong
enough to
make it 
this far,
God and the
universe
Applauds
You
and I 
do too.




Saturday, June 13, 2015

Joy

I've laughed in jail
a big
happy
belly
Laugh
danced on
the streets
penniless 
and broke
howled at
the moon
when I had 
no food
and somehow
smiled
with
rotten
shoes
and somehow
sick as a dog
I've cackled
Joy is an
attitude
it can be
had in 
the shittiest
 of all our
predicaments
of misery
and all
our rubs
joy can
visit you
anywhere
on your
darkest
day
when you've
lost your
Way
and even
when you are
about to
die
and joy
might be
your last 
visitor
on that
day
just before
you fall
off
the
Earth










Friday, June 12, 2015

New Orleans



Is it an old city
that wears black clothes
and grieves for it's soul
in the purplish grey light
that wakens winter's sad morning
and muddy shredded sleeping boots 
hanging of benches by the river
I mean the tramps
and it cries through the eyes 
of sick old haggard men
who sit on the steps
by the river 
smoking Bugler
where water licks their shoes
and between bites of stale
yesterday pastries
they long for the love 
they cannot get
and their dead mothers 
and more "Mad Dog"
and me for 
more beer
and this old city is a 
grey mourning lady who cries too
and the hope in her arms
is a dead terrier
shrieking for life 
from it's eyes
for the song of
horses hooves at night
and carriage wheels
and piano blues drifting out
windows to the
ears of the moon
for the ghosts of what
she dreamed of
not to be the
dreams of ghosts but what
she wanted them to
and this is the real blues
the unsung song 
that no one has sang
that sings without lips
to the ships
and Algiers and 
my emptiness and
a dawn that wants to
orange but can't
and I am slurped 
out of my skull
a numb empty cranium
freshly pulled from
ill luck's 
bag of crawfish
and my heart 
is a faucet
that wants to cry
for this old city
that seems like
it wants to die.





LET THEM STEW

Eyes so cold
that have no soul
icy and mean
and mad at world
In whom joy
has died,
Don't you dare
Say hello to
those perturbed
souls who
have ire
to what they
don't understand
and contempt 
for smiles,
oh let them
stew,
for a day
will come
when their
anger will
chew their
inner man
like cancer,
and then they
will weep











POOF



Our life is not even

a breath from the gaping mouth of eternity
and sometimes it
seems so long 
and every tenth time
that the trees shed 
all their leaves
we look back and stare at three thousand six hundred and fifty yesterdays
that flew by like a decade on a jet, in
disbelief
and suddenly
our mind
is a theatre
showing all the
films of
our memory
of lovers
our dogs 
and 
our cats
and babies
and our triumphs 
and failures
and our great friends
and our mighty 
foes
all of life's
trinkets
and trophies
and 
Catastrophes
as our life is
sucked through 
the vacuum 
of time 
and we die
and after that
more years
and decades fly
and then there's
no one left to remember us
       

Monsters of Guadalupe



Dark pavement hearts
a parade of scowls
and stony pissed off
glares
for the filthy smashed
souls
spit out
of the mouth of
the poverty dinosaur
and the world has more
time to give their
turds to the toilet
than the bums
on Guadalupe St
that give every last misery
to the brown bottle
and lay like dead scarecrows
dehydrating in the sun
the dream babies
of hopeful mothers
and fathers
sucked away
by beer
and whiskey
and heroin
and jail
twenty or thirty
years ago they were
cute beautiful
infants
and now they're just sad
wilted sunflowers
dangling out
the tarnished
trash can
of failure